Putting my foot down

I'm not going to continue to be treated like this.

On a happier note

Going to get drunk today as I feel I deserve to. here's me

I'm properly FUCKED OFF right now. I'm fucking sick of not being listened to and being lied to. I mean what the actual fuck?!?!?!?!?!?!


Got a fuck load of thinking to do like.

Life is gooooood right now :)
Such a happy wee bunny

Its such a nice day outside yet I really cannot be arsed moving out of bed. I've been up for a shower but the mixture of last nights Nefopam and this mornings Dihydrocodeine has me completely mongoled out.
I still need to tan, straighten my hair and extensions, put my extensions in (2 full head sets) and put on my make up. Boooooo at you good weather meaning I have to tan so that I'm not completely see through :(

Think what I'm gonna do one day is print out hunners of CVs and cover letters, get a big list of all the Pharmacies near me and just send them out. I HATEHATEHATE job hunting. And since Boots fucked up and I can't get paid on the dole (apparently I haven't paid National Insurance contributions, which I clearly have) I have no help from the Jobcentre. Not that they are any help anyway!

So my Dads partner has been getting gradually worse over the past few weeks. The Doctors put her in a coma last week and today the had to turn off the machine. I've no idea how he's feeling because he's one of these people that doesn't show his emotions very well :(

So to whoever told me that this was karma punishing me, I hope you're fucking happy with yourself. You horrible worthless disgusting piece of shit.

If you don't have anything nice/constructive to say about me

Why the fuck are you on my blog you mosey little cretins? :)

You're making yourself look seriously pathetic hahahaaa

Funny when people try and slag you off anonymously but you know exactly who it is :)
I'm mingin? Deek yerself!

Anyway I went and picked up my car today and it just made me so sad :(
It's such a nice day for driving but I couldn't even go over 55mph because I have no 5th gear WAAAAA
Now I just have to wait for the other garage to call me to get it booked in to fix the CV boot, drive shaft and gear box. I also feel like making them get me a new side skirt for the offside because they fucking dented it when they jacked the car up. NIGHTMER

I WANT TO LOOK LIKE THIS AGAIN PLEEEASE

BEAST!

I can't wait til Tuesday! Interview for a Team Manager job at Boots! Yeahhhhhhhhhhh

I neeeeed my fucking car back :'(

cunt isn't answering the phone though so he's clearly trying to get out of fixing it. RAGEFACE

David Ross

Is an absolute cutie! Went and got me face wipes earlier and was gonna get me concealer too (but i want to choose a new one) and is now going to take me down to the Pans to hand in y application form for thee perfect job :D
He's also taking me to the cinema on Friday to see The Devil Inside, it looks amaaazing!
Hopefully I'll have my car back asap so we can share the driving from then on. he drives me everywhere!

Mine and Codys Polos :D

thats boots fucked me over AGAIN! Applied for a team manager position at edinburgh airport,


 recieved an email yesterday to say theyd tried to get in touch to arrange an interview when 


they clearly hadn't now the positions been filled. called the manager and she was gutted 


because she really wanted to interview me. RAGING

MY WEE CAR :D AND DAVES!

Dear Jason Russell,

After being bombarded with your KONY 2012 crusade, I have no choice but to respond to your highly inaccurate, offensive, and harmful propaganda.  I realized I had to respond in hopes of stopping you before you cause more violence and deaths to the Acholi people (Northern Ugandans), the very people you are claiming to protect.

Firstly, I would like to question your timing of this KONY 2012 crusade in Uganda when most of the violence from Joseph Kony and the LRA (The Lord’s Resistance Army) has subsided in Uganda in the past 5 years. The LRA has moved onto neighboring countries like the DRC and Sudan. Why are you not urging action in the countries he is currently in? Why are you worried about Kony all of a sudden when Ugandans are not at this present moment?

This grossly illogical timing and statements on your website such as “Click here to buy your KONY 2012 products” makes me believe that the timing has more to do with your commercial interests than humanitarian interests. With the upcoming U.S. presidential elections and the waning interest in Invisible Children, it seems to be perfect timing to start a crusade. I also must add at this point how much it personally disgusts me the way in which you have commercialized a conflict in which thousands of people have died.

Secondly, I would like to address the highly inaccurate content of your video. Your video did not leave the viewer any more knowledgeable about the conflict in Uganda, but only emotionally assaulted. I could not help but notice how conveniently one-sided the “explanation” in your video was. There was absolutely no mention of the role of the Ugandan government and military in the conflict. Let alone the role of the U.S. government and military.  The only information given is “KONY MUST BE STOPPED.”

I would like to inform you that stopping Kony would not end the conflict. (It is correctly pronounced “Kohn” by the way). This conflict is deeply embedded in Uganda’s history that neither starts nor ends with Kony. Therefore, your solution to the problem is flawed. There is no way to know the solution, without full knowledge of the problem itself.  We must act on knowledge, not emotions.

Joseph Kony formed the LRA in retaliation to the brutality of President Museveni (from the south) committing mass atrocities on the Acholi people (from the north) when President Museveni came to power in 1986. This follows a long history of Ugandan politics that can be traced back to pre-colonial times.  The conflict must be contextualized within this history. (If you want to have this proper knowledge, I suggest you start by working with scholars, not celebrities).  President Museveni is still in power and in his reign of 26 years he has arguably killed as many, if not more Acholi people, than Joseph Kony. Why is President Museveni not demonized, let alone mentioned? I would like to give you more credit than just ignorance. I have three guesses. One is that Invisible Children has close ties with the Ugandan government and military, which it has been accused of many times. Second, is that you are willing to fight Kony, but not the U.S. Government, which openly supports President Museveni. Third, is that Invisible Children feels the need to reduce the conflict to better commercialize it.

This brings me to my third issue, the highly offensive nature of your video. Firstly, it is offensive to your viewer. The scene with your “explanation” of the conflict to your toddler son suggests that the viewers have the mental capacity of a toddler and can only handle information given in such a reductionist manner. I would like to think American teenagers and young adults (which is clearly your target audience) are smarter than your toddler son. I would hope that we are able to realize that it is not a “Star Wars” game with aliens and robots in some far off galaxy as your son suggests, but a real world conflict with real world people in Uganda. This is a real life conflict with real life consequences.

Secondly, and more importantly, it is offensive to Ugandans. The very name “Invisible Children” is offensive. You claim you make the invisible, visible. The statements, “We have seen these kids.” and “No one knew about these kids.” are part of your slogan. You seem to be strongly hinting that you somehow have validated and found these kids and their struggles.

Whether you see them or not, they were always there. Your having seen the kids does not validate their existence in any shape or form or bring it any more significance. You say “no one” knew about the kids. What about the kids themselves? What about the families of the kids who were killed and abducted? Are they “no one?” Are they not human?

These children are not invisible, you are making them invisible by silencing, dehumanizing, marketing, and invalidating them.

Last year I went to Gulu, Uganda, where Invisible Children is based, and interviewed over 50 locals.  Every single person questioned Invisible Children’s legitimacy and intention. Every single person. If anything, it seemed the people saw Invisible Children as a bigger threat than Joseph Kony at the time. Why is it the very people you are trying to “help” feel more offense than relief with your aid?

“They come here to make money and use us.”

 “It makes us feel terrible to be presented as being so stupid and helpless.”

These are direct quotes. This was the sentiment of the majority of the people that I interviewed in varying degrees. I definitely didn’t see or hear these voices or opinions in your video. If you are to be “saving” the Acholi people, the very least you can be doing is holding yourself accountable to them and actually listening to what they have to say.

This offensive, inaccurate misconstruction of Ugandans and its conflict makes me wonder what and whom this is really about. It seems that you feel very good about yourself being a savior, a Luke Skywalker of sorts, and same with the girl in your video who passionately states, “This is what defines us”. Therefore, I can’t help but wonder if Invisible Children is more about defining the American do-gooders (and making them feel good), rather than the Ugandans; profiteering the American military and corporations (which Invisible Children is officially and legally) than the conflict.

Lastly, I would like to address the harmful nature of your propaganda. I believe your actions will actually bring back the fighting in Northern Uganda. You are not asking for peace, but violence. The fighting has stopped in the past 5 years and the Acholi are finally enjoying some peace.  You will be inviting the LRA and the fighting back into Uganda and disturbing this peace. The last time Invisible Children got politically involved and began lobbying it actually caused more violence and deaths. I beg you not to do it again.

If you open your eyes and see the actions of the Ugandan government and the U.S. government, you will see why.  Why is it that suddenly in October of 2011 when there has been relative peace in Uganda for 4 years, President Obama decided to send troops into Uganda? Why is it that the U.S. military is so involved with AFRICOM, which has been pervading African countries, including Uganda? Why is it that U.S. has been traced to creating the very weapons that has been used in the violence?  The U.S. is entering Uganda and other countries in Africa not to stop violence, but to create a new battlefield.

In your video you urge that the first course of action is that the Ugandan military needs American military and weapons. You are giving weapons to the very people who were killing the Acholi people in the first place. You are helping to open the grounds for America to make Uganda into a battlefield in which it can profit and gain power. Please recognize this is all part of a bigger military movement, not a humanitarian movement. This will cause deaths, not save lives. This will be doing more harm, than good.

You end your video with saying, “You will stop at nothing”.  If nothing else, will you not stop for the lives of the Acholi people? Haven’t enough Acholi people suffered in the violence between the LRA and the Ugandan government? Our alliance should not be with the U.S. government or the Ugandan military or the LRA, but the Acholi people.  There is a Ugandan saying that goes, “The grass will always suffer when two elephants fight.” Isn’t it time we let the grass grow?

Thank you.

Sincerely,

Amber Ha 

Birdys words of wisdom

fat people shouldnt be happy with themselves thev let thersel something chronic and its dangerous to their health

Looking good for getting my car today!!! I can't waaaait

QUESTIONS:

1.Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends? I'm not either of them
2.Ever hurt yourself on purpose? - Yes
3.Ever been to a psychologist? - Nope
4.Lost weight? - A lot through high school
5.Gained weight? - Obviously
6.Do you drink? -  Nope
7.Do you smoke? - Yes
8.Do you take drugs? - No (weed doesn't count)
9.Does your weight affect your mood? - Yes
10.Do you weight yourself daily? - Try to 
11.Have you ever gone through a whole day without food (fast)? - yes
12.Have you ever skipped a meal? - Yes… I rarely have meals.
13.Have you ever spit food out? - *SPAT. Yes

HABITS:
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[ ] I look at thinspo
[ ] I collect thinspo 
[x] I avoid food
[ ] I hate food 
[ ] I love food 

I AM:
[] anorexic 
[x] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs
[] fasting/starving myself

PEOPLE:
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic/have an ED
[x] have called me fat
[x] have said I’m skinny
[x] have said I’m ugly
[x] have said I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] forced me to eat

I WISH:
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 100lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[ ] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty

I LOVE:
[ ] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[ ] shaking
[x] feeling airy
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic/ednos
[x] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE:
[ ] I am shorter than 5’4
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes
[x] I have self made scars
[ ] I have a tattoo
[x] I wear glasses 
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears (Tragus, Navel)
[x] I have freckles
[E] Cup size is (A) (B) (C) (D) (DD)

It’s SHITE being Scottish! We’re the lowest of the low. The scum of the fucking Earth! The most wretched, miserable, servile, pathetic trash that was ever shat into civilization. Some hate the English. I don’t. They’re just wankers. We, on the other hand, are COLONIZED by wankers. Can’t even find a decent culture to be colonized BY. We’re ruled by effete assholes. It’s a SHITE state of affairs to be in, Tommy, and ALL the fresh air in the world won’t make any fucking difference!

Which sticker to get?!

• No Fat Chick, Car Will Scrape
• Lower Than Your Nans Nipples
• Goes Faster Than A Smackheads Giro
• Lower Than A Smackheads Morals
• My Brakes Are Good… How’s Your Insurance?
• Caution: This Vehicle Stops At All Speedbumps
• I Brake For Pies

???????????????????

I have an interview Sallys on Tuesday :D

LOL

90s HARDSTYLE FUCK AYE

tuuuuune

One thing I hate about tanning.

The scars on my arms become so visible O_O
Maybe not to everyone but they certainly do to me. What a fucking idiot.